this is all about love i had dream at night....
my first dream was i was engaged with someone i didn't know who is he... but i'm really happy....
my second dream was i'm at my crush 's house all his family treat me nicely except for his big sis... she really doesn't like me... i'm so sad...
my third dream was my family accept my senior from my course mate as my partner... and we all really happy.....
and yesterday was my fourth dream.... my senior course mate came from kl with his family to propose me.. and my family accept it and we all went lunch together... i don't know how far this dream catcher will be... but i really confused...
for my crush.. i have to forget him,.. because he was in love with his best friend... and i think he just consider me as the little girl that doesn't know anything about love.. just want to express her love to anyone she like just like that....
NO!!! .. i'm not that type of girl that just express her feeling to anybody.. just want to play around and clash if i don't like it...
i'm just a girl that sincerely express my feeling towards someone i really really like... but nobody knows it...
everyone think that this 20 years old girl just don't understand what is love all about.. just to small for love and marriage... not enough idea what marriage is all about... just think about the happiness.. she don't think about the challenge in marriage, love, world...... she doesn't think about responsible... she knows nothing..
but deep in my heart.. i know its a little bit to early for me to think about love and early marriage..
for me.. i'm still trying to understand the challenges and responsible that i have to face it in marriage..
i know all about the happiness.... sadness.. what i have to do.. it is not about just get married and have a child and live happily ever after...
but it is about why you get married? because its sunnah... its all about responsible..how you handle your marital problems? how you gonna manage your child? how you gonna teach your children about Allah,Islam, good things, bad things and all about this world.. all of this you have to learn,read and gain from the older's experience.. improvise it for this era of children...
i know i'm just a little girl that still depend on my parents.. but i'm the girl that want to face the challenge of the world.. i wanna try it by myself....
i'm pray to Allah "give me the best person for me and give it at the right time for me"
the best person means someone that not perfect 10 but compliment each other.. if i'm down he soothes me.. if he's angry i will be the ice to cool him .... its not like he must be handsome.. rich.. and sadow... but for me his religion is very important thing that i want... i know that i'm not good enough..but i want him to lead me to jannah... that's all... and i wish that Allah can grant me the person that love Allah more than anything... not the warak one...not the alim one.. but the imam for the family..... ameennn.....
